Yesterday was my big day…….no students at school, I was so hoping to get lots of needed paperwork done in my classroom! But I ran into a problem………this was the first time in a very long time I was alone for the day. Alone with my thoughts!
Wow and didn’t those thoughts, emotions, worries, and fears start to take over! I had trouble focusing on the task at hand, I kept getting sidetracked by the worries of this world. And I have plenty to worry about these days, so needless to say it was really pretty easy to get sidetracked!
Pity for me and our situation
Worries for the future, we are applying for social security disability on Monday, what if we are denied?
Missing Curt and the fun loving husband and household leader he once was
Tyler and Madi, how will this affect their lives and future
Oh and I can go on and on, but I will STOP there! I now see why keeping so busy can be a mixed blessing for me. I also realized what I worked through yesterday is NORMAL, and it’s ok……it just hit me unexpectedly, unplanned and unabashed. And I guess that is normal too.
I am by nature a positive person, fiercely independent and a bit feisty at times. 🙂 But I am realizing day by day, to learn to be less INDEPENDENT and more DEPENDENT.
Dependent on GOD!
To truly understand the meaning of 1 Peter 5:7 Cast ALL your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
Yep, cast them ALL on Him……hard to do at times, yet it is a journey we are all on. And as with any journey, it takes time and there is much to be learned along the way.
So in some ways my unproductive day was good for me because I was reminded of something much deeper and more powerful then the paperwork at hand!
And as I drove home alone from the grocery store at the end of the day, I heard this song on the radio. It was a good reminder to me of the Greater things that are yet to come!